what will i have to bitch about when i finally finish school?!? even after all of my complaining - okay, so let's call it whining - about college, i've somehow given off the impression that's it's a nice hideout for those of us that can't face the real world. how do i know this? derek just enrolled for the rest of the spring semester.
in the great tradition of people who need something to do until they get a better gig, we've both resorted to higher learning as a way to fill the time. true enough, mine was a barrage of peer pressure from my friends. (thanks a lot julie, mary, kris, barbara.... and on and on.) in the end i hope to be pleased about it, though i'm pretty sure relieved will be the correct adjective. derek isn't going on the same logic; he's simply trying to fill out his resume gaps with something that appears to be productive. looks good tp potential interviewers, you know? jeez, if i remember correctly, that's how i got into this mess in the first place.
it's almost as if we're recapturing our youth. i look back and think of the days when i first moved out on my own as a little bitty sixteen year old girl. some nights i would sit up and wonder how i was going to get by in the long run. besides just working myself silly and becoming a weekend alcoholic, i weighed my options carefully.
should i just give up and get busted robbing a liquor store? that would give me a place to live with no rent, free food, and maybe even some hardcore street cred. they even have cable tv in those places. should i join a convent? surely god would take care of me, never mind that i don't believe in god. i would never have to decide what to wear. should i go into the military? i'd get a skill and a free workout routine. they would have me travel all over and i'd be eligible for military discounts. those uniforms have shiny buttons. (laugh if you will, but i did almost join the air force at one point - little known fact. but i've never been arrested.) in the end, i chose door number four and went to college. it wasn't because i had a burning desire to be an academic, but rather for the "time well spent" effect on my resume and the student loans. if i went to school, i could pay the rent and look like a well-rounded person all at once. you can see now why the deja vu feeling is upon me now.
they say the secret to life is keeping young at heart. well, i work with teenagers on a regular basis and i've gone back to getting student loans. all this comes at a time when i've finally paid off those old student loans from the first go at school. ironic and cute, isn't it? not that i'm alone in my pursuit - i have derek to struggle right next to me now. well, him and about a gajillion other people who are taking the same path of avoidance these days. fund higher education! it feeds your friends and neighbors! wow, do i feel young or what?
random fact:
i ride an elevator every day
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